Back in February I wrote an article about depression, which is a super sensitive topic for myself and I’m sure many others. Simply put, a mood check is just an informal assessment of your mood. Living with depression can be difficult and even a little annoying. Especially with everything going on in the world right now, I know there are people who suffer with depression that aren’t doing well. I had to check-in with myself and allow myself to express my emotions in a healthy way. Depression isn’t talked about enough in the black community. It’s either overlooked or there’s someone saying it’s not real and we should just suck it up. Hey, black girl/guy you’re valid and your depression matters to me! There are people out there that truly believe depression isn’t real and I’m here to say it’s so real it’s almost tangible. (Read That Again)
*Link to the depression article*
I woke up this morning from a rather realistic dreamare (I don’t like calling it a nightmare if it wasn’t scary). Basically the scenario was different, but it made me feel helpless and frustrated. I had a moment because it brought back feelings and emotions that I didn’t want to deal with. This dreamare ALMOST ruined my day. Remembering that I already suffer from depression, I knew that I couldn’t stay like that all day. When my depression hits I overload myself with things that I love so that I can feel like myself and come back fighting. I’ve also learned to pray and talk to God about what’s bothering me, giving my problems over to Him can change my mood instantly.
At the risk of being repetitive I’m revisiting the topic of depression, because it isn’t something that just goes away. Especially if you aren’t on any medications and choose to self-treat. It will pop-up whether it was triggered by something/someone or you woke up one day feeling down for no reason. This quarantine thing can mess with a depressed person’s head. I just want everyone dealing with this right now to know that you are not alone!!! For the ones that are at home by themselves and don’t have anyone, please stay strong and ask for help if you need it. Even if you have to contact me, I’m here to help. This is not the time to slack on your mental health routines (it might be thrown off a little already). Make sure you continue to check in with yourself.
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Thanks for reading! Now that I have the hang of this, I’m trying to get creative and use things in a different way. My laptop broke so now I HAVE use my phone to type these (although I was using it already).