Stepping out on faith is like someone telling you to step off a cliff and you’ll be fine. Now any sane and rational person would be like, “uh…. what do you mean I’ll be fine, there’s nothing there.” That is faith. Being able to act even when you’re not sure of what’s going to happen next. God is saying, “I know what it looks like, but stick with me.” I’m learning that it’s faith and obedience that will carry me for the rest of my life. Along with holiness, keeping my hands clean, and my heart pure. (I’ve been repeating this like a mantra!)
This for me personally means cutting out things that aren’t pleasing to God, because those things add unnecessary noise. When I say noise I mean those things that stop us from hearing the voice of God. When He speaks it’s not like in the movies where there’s a loud deep voice coming from the sky. It’s usually more subtle like a sign or a sudden thought that pops in your head out of nowhere. I know it sounds crazy, I grew up in the church so I’m kind of used to it. BUT I’ve also seen miraculous and unexplainable things happen and there’s no way God wasn’t present.
Learning how to operate on faith is like walking a tightrope into an unknown territory. You don’t see, understand, or know how it’ll work out at all. It’s your faith that forces you to go with it anyway. Now please understand that faith isn’t rational up until a certain point. That’s where your common sense and discernment. Discernment simply means the ability to judge well. (You can read up on it to get a better understanding of the word.) I’m at the point where I turn to God for every decision that I make as far as big decisions go. I’m also trusting Him and my instincts when it comes to everyday decisions. This road hasn’t been easy and it has definitely broken me down in ways I never thought possible.
All I know is I’ve done some things I’m not proud of in my life, but God still loves me and covers me. When I was at the point where killing myself was the only option God stepped in and said, “If you hold on I’ll show you things that’ll blow your mind.” I’ve already started seeing Him work and I’m just waiting on the full manifestation of His promise. I’m so ready!
Yeah I take this God thing seriously. I wouldn’t be where I am without Him. I know that wasn’t lighter lol, but it’ll get there! Thanks for reading!