Stepping Into My Role As A Woman

I don’t quite feel like a woman yet lol. I still feel like I’m 16 trying to figure out life. The truth is that the along with a lot of other 25 year olds, life is coming at us fast. There are some of us who are more established than others and some who need a little help. It’s kind of strange to get to this point. Looking back on the different changes that I’ve experienced, and I’m just so grateful to be alive.

Right now I’m learning what it really means to be a woman, and a black woman on top of that. There are things that I want out of life and that I want my children to have. Not only can I never give up, but I have to dodge a whole other set of challenges. At this age everyone’s starting to come into their own and really shine as individuals.

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With everything I’ve been through this is all on me. From this point on I can’t blame anyone but myself for things not turning out right. I’m grown I have to always take responsibility for myself, there’s no one to catch me if I fall. Especially being in a new state away from most of my family. I can’t being up things that happened as an excuse anymore. I have something to prove to myself, so I’m going to do just that.

My work ethic and character will have to carry me along the way. I feel like I don’t have enough time to do all of the things that I want to do. I don’t have enough energy and there aren’t enough hours in the day. Although I feel all of this pressure to perform and to produce, I’m willing to withstand it until the end.


Hello, so I have some good news that I’m proud to share with you. *Drumroll* I am trying my hand at writing an actual romance story. I’ve been reading romance stories for most of my life, but now I am writing one. It’s called ‘While We’re Young” on Wattpad (, I have one part completed, but I’ll be updating regularly. Look up my profile Mariime95 to keep up with any future stories and updates.

Published by Mariah Eskridge

Hello I'm Mariah Eskridge and my goal is to encourage those who otherwise wouldn't have the support. I graduated from Illinois State University in May 2019 with a Bachelors Degree in Marketing and Accounting. I've been faced with plenty of situations that I would've loved having someone that I can relate to.

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